In march I was lying in bed and took a drink of water, and with MS I have a compromised swallowing reflex and started choking on the water, I was waterboarding my self. When they say u can drown in an inch of water they aren’t kidding. I started coughing violently in bed and my girlfriend at the time said I went limp for about 4 minutes and was shaking me, she is a CNA and was about to call 911 then I came to.
Oh my god I was in so much pain in my chest and throat. the only thing I remember is hearing, “You’re not done yet” before regaining consciousness.
2 weeks later is when the synchronicities started coming with animals coming to me with lessons. The first creature was a beetle climbing on me in my car. Then my cousin posted that a moose came to her bedroom window in Vermont in the city, the a coworker was talking about a woodpecker that burrowed into his house instead of the 300 cedars on his lot, then I a moth come to me, it was like it was flapping its wings in slow motion and I could see the powder flying off its body, then my other cousin posted he had just seen a woodchuck on the golf course he works at in VT. There’e more but I’ll get back to it.
OK animal meanings. Beetle represents rebirth and also it was before Easter. Moose self esteem issues and my cuz totally knew what that meant for her at her bedroom window. Woodpecker When a Woodpecker totem enters your life,it indicates that the foundation is there and it is safe to follow through.It will stimulate new rhythms. It reflects a wakening of new mental faculties.You may be so wrapped up in mental and spiritual activities that you’ve neglected the physical. moth represents soul level work and depends on the stage of it i.e. larvae, chrysalis or in flight. Well it was small so just out of chrysalis; rebirth. And there is a spa in our town called the chrysalis. I was in a chrysalis spiritually for 8 years since moving to Bellingham. I had just come out of the chrysalis and was trying out my NEW wings.
Just after seeing the moth I spoke with a friend at my church, Center for Spiritual living, and she said she heard the animals had been coming to me, then I told her about the readings I had been doing for friends and family, then it hit me…they may have been for them, but the animals were coming to ME THROUGH their experiences. They were coming to me with a message for me through them.
I AM going thru a shamanic healing. later that day is when the woodchuck showed up on facebook. Here is woodchuck
A very difficult and powerful totem to have,
Groundhog is the symbol of opening fully to the dreamtime.
Of exploring altered states of consciousness more deeply and fully.
Dreams will have great significance.
Lessons associated with death, dying and revelations about its processes will begin to surface. Groundhog can teach its people metabolic control.
How to go into the great unconscious without harm.
People with a Groundhog totem need to have definite
boundaries in their life and let those around them know those boundaries.
Groundhog’s power is strongest in Winter and two years is an important time period.
Two years of intensive studying might be required to achieve
true trances or alter states of consciousness.
This is often the totem of Shamans and Mystics.
This took place in a period of one month.
